have you ever thought

have you ever thought about the possibility that people only do things because the realise it is an option?

for example, suicide.
how did people figure out that dying seemed like a good idea?
imagine the amount of people that could have been saved because they didnt know the idea exsisted?
what if they never knew that could be a way to "escape"?
would that save them?

like, some stuff is unfortunately taught to you.

like, my baby cousin, never has nightmares, and was never scared of stuff, until she watched some episode of a kids show about monsters and nightmares, and being scared about things, and trying not to be scared.
that night she declared to her mother that something was "SCARY""i cant sleep, its scary" or something. i can so imagine the voice she said it in too haha :)
but yeah, how stupid is that? she wasnt REALLY scared! but its just assumed that ALL kids her age are scared of things. people try to solve issues that havent started yet.
what if those issues never started if they were never mentioned in the first place?

if you believe in something enough it becomes true. just think how many teenagers become depressed from listening to music and stuff about being depressed and self harm and not wanting to live, then they start thinking of that stuff as an option, and then the next time they get upset, its the first thing they think of. then they cant get it off their mind. then it becomes what they really feel. because they cant remember what they did before they were corrupted by the media.
maybe depression and methods of dealing with it come around at coincidental times.
like when you start feeling that way is when you are exposed to that stuff.
i dont know.
im just thinking about all this shit because im studying ted hughes, and sylvia plath, and kurt cobain at the moment. it makes me sad that they had to be so sad.

"Plath did have an obsession with death, though not to the extent of, say, Anne Sexton, who seemed obsessed with suicide, namely hers- but Sexton, a friend of Plath's, did once recall the endless conversations the two had about their experience with suicide, saying they were drawn 'like moths to an electric light bulb'."
i mean, if they recognised their obsession, and were able to speak to others about it, then WHY?
more people than ever seem to be using self harm, getting diagnosed with depression, and attempting and commiting suicide.

see, if we were not taught that stuff, it would be better.
but if we were not being taught that stuff, we would not be in todays society.
without society's constraints, i doubt there would be much reason for suicide.

maybe that stuff is inevitable in some people because they DO have a chemical imbalance, which lies dormant, and becomes pronounced in puberty.
i dont know. im just thinking out loud (?)

we shouldnt be taught so much stuff.
how are we supposed to know what we really feel?
i think we should all have to grow up and discover things by ourselves.
im sick of being so protected, and issues being pre-assumed.